Found my lost love after 5 years.

5 years before, I went south India with a tour company.
I was just on class 9 then.

It was a big tour, and we had a large group, many boys and girls of almost my same age was there.
I can make friends very quickly, so with in one day, we created a group.
But there was only one tomboy type girl, who was not with us.

She loved to stay alone, and the attitude? She had, none of them never wished to call her to play.
But, her elder sister was very frank with me, one day I asked, why she is that type?

She said, “my sister don’t like indoor games, she likes to play outside”.

From, few more conversation, I came to know that, she was daredevil type. I found many similarities with me. From her attitude , her dress up, I understood that she was not a normal girl, she was very, very unique.
I fell on love for the first time in my life, don’t know why?
Neither she had a good friendship with me, nor she had an attractive looks.
And for her attitude, I never managed to tell her my wish.
That untold felling was burning me, I hardly managed to call her to play with us.
She came, but from her behaviour, her facial expressions, it was clear that, she was not enjoying our company, sign of disturbance is all over her face.

Still I called her every day, to saw her closely.
I got more information from her sister, about her. And on the final day, somehow managed to get her phone no.
So the tour finished, we all came back home, I searched them on fb from a cyber cafe( I had no personal mobile then),
I failed to find any of them, so I called her from a booth, I wished her elder sister will receive it, so that I can tell her the story.
Her sister liked me , so I was pretty confident, she will help me.
But, the phone was received by her mother, and cut the phone in fear.

I knew that, she had a house near chinsurah station, and from a paper of our tour manager, I got her father’s name. Though it was wrong actually, because of same title, I thought it was her father’s name.
I went chinsurah, and searched by her father’s name day after day.
After two years of hard unsuccessful labour, I gave up on her, only I had the hope that, I will find her one day. But I never Searched for her in chinsurah since class 11.
The fun of class 11-12 , pressure of study, helped me to fade her memories partially.
3 years later, I saw my friend Searching on Facebook by phone number, I lost the paper, where her phone number was written but it was still in my memory.
It was her mother’s phone number, but I was so lucky, she had the phone number on her Facebook ac.
I found her.
Men never cry, but I was unable to control my tears, it was not the tears of love, it was the tears of my success, with in some days we became close friends too.
From her I came to know that, she already had a break up, so she don’t want a relationship, she don’t want to marry. She just wants to focus on her career.
So I planned to, wait and propose her, when her mind will change.
But, I was so tired, that 5 years of untold feelings made me so weak, I proposed her knowing the fact, she will not accept me.
She said, she was confused about her future, and so she don’t want to commit anyone.
She also said, she liked me but not love me, and she don’t want to hurt me.

It was hard for me to accept, but at least it was better than those five years of suspense.
But, I loved her Selflessly, so after she rejected? me, our friendship not lost, even it turned stronger.
Many days after, she told me she faced a same situation like me, she loved someone? knowing the fact, who will most probably never be her.

So, nothing to do more from my side, I had no plan to be in a relation with someone else, so I can wait for her.

Believing the fact that, I found her because destiny wants us to stay together.

Every tomorrow is a newer day, so I hope, one day she will love me.

Don’t know, what’s next?
Time will tell.

So, I am hoping for the best, and preparing for the worst.