I dated this guy for almost 2 years and literally right before we hit two years, I found out he was cheating on me. I really loved him and it actually hurt me that he would do that to me and I won’t lie, I’m the type of person that acts like nothing hurts or fazes her which is why I can’t talk to anyone about this face to face because I might cry and crying makes me look weak.

So yeah, after I found out I went off the deep and got into things like drugs and alcohol and I lost myself. After about a year or so I got a text from him apologizing and I won’t lie I missed him so I started talking to him and on my birthday, we started dating again and guess what? He cheated on me again… SHOCKER.

I haven’t talked to anyone about it because I feel so stupid and I don’t want my friends to think I’m stupid. Not talking about it is makes my heart and soul feel so heavy. What really hurts my heart the most is that we weren’t even dating for a month the second time we started dating. Anyways after I caught him with another girl (the second time) I kind of recognized her but not completely, so I spent almost the entire night trying to remember her but I couldn’t, so I ended up messaging him asking who it was.

After about 5 minutes he told me and it ended up being the same girl he cheated on me with the first time. At first, I didn’t believe it because she was supposed to be in Manitoba but little did I know she was back for about two months and he was with her for those two months. Finding that out made me feel so much worse, I don’t know why but knowing it was her made me feel like I was going to get over it again and as of right now I’m not over it. I honestly still have thoughts like “why weren’t you enough” & “what’d you do wrong this time” running through my head.