This is going to be long. But I really hope somebody sees this and comments on this.
Anyways I’ve been needing to talk to people, but I can’t really talk to my friend or family about it because I know they won’t understand.
When I was in kinder or first grade or near there I would always run out of the classroom. Every day. I mean like every day. I would get in a lot of trouble.
I have really bad anxiety, but I’ve always felt disconnected from almost everything really which is strange. I have 3 great friends. I laugh and spend memories with them, but I don’t feel human. I can feel pain of others. Physically and emotionally.
I can never sleep at night. I’m failing some of my classes in my school and I have this girl and other kids bullying me and I’m moving far away from the current state I’m in now.
I’m so depressed and I’m sick and tired of people telling me to talk to a psychologist. I don’t feel normal. I tend to get surprised when I look in the mirror sometimes. I don’t even look like… well who I really supposed to be.
I feel like my family is not even my family I feel so selfish saying that but it’s true. I’m so sorry this is lone. I just need somebody to understand. I cy every night. Wondering what it would feel like to be normal.
I wish I never even was on Earth. I feel so lost. I feel like I can’t trust anyone now. Not even my family. I feel so selfish. I’m scared. I’ve had so many bad things happen to me. I just want to belong. Belong to my planet or my realm or my universe.
But I guess that won’t be happening.