I feel broken. Not heart broken, just broken. I feel this emptiness in me. It is hard to describe. Everything is going well for me. I am a full-time student, I work on weekends. I have a passion. I have friends and family that care for me.
It feels like I am taking them for granted. I feel like I am not good enough. I just want to drop out of college and quit on life. I am tired of everything. I feel like I have nothing for me. I’ve been told otherwise. I am a burden to society. I don’t have the courage to end myself, I wish every night before I sleep that I never wake up. I am just living my life day by day with mask on my face saying that I am fine.
Hi there,
I know how you feel, my dad drank himself to death 3weeks ago, i had to clean him in the hospital, had to feed him and had to be the rock for my mom and sister. I am going through training and also studies to worry about. Trying to stay focused and be happy well… act happy… i just woke up this morning and decided. WHY? Why me??? Then I took a shower and just said f$#@ this. WHY NOT ME? … be an inspiration to people around you! I promise by taking your life , will make you a burdon… by creating an awsome life for yourself , you will lift so much of off your families shoulders and so many people around you …. why should someone first go through something horrible to inspire others … take your life and just multiply the goodness with 100… when you feel sad… get up! Go for a run, or go see a movie. Go have a coffee with a friend you haven’t seen in a while… trust me, being sad will make everyone around you sad… i’ve been there… i’ve seen the dark side… i still see it sometimes… but that is when tou need to get up and get going !!!!!!
Felt that way before and things never made sense to me until I allow myself to believe that there was someone out there that took care of me I became a Christian and yea I know what you might feel when you read ohh great here she comes to judge me no I not that girl your not alone I felt that way before many times and for me my family’s well say it never had support and well I felt like I wanted to end it till I meet the love of GOD that’s changed me and I hope one day my voice will be heard you will be surprise all the things I went through but yet I made it just want to pass the love your not alone and God loves you