Jonghyun, I noticed, and I didn’t say anything, I’m sorry…
He was such a good person, it only took a matter of hours by himself to do such a thing… no one wants to end their life. They just want to end their pain. It’s his birthday today, I remember watching SHINee years ago. I never stopped supporting. I took a break from the Internet, for my own health. I came back to see him a little less lively, maybe he was stressed. I could see the change inside him because it was the same change inside me. I refused to see it as something bad, because I didn’t want it to be bad. I don’t know why I didn’t say anything to anyone about his change in mood. I never talked about my feelings, and it seems he didn’t either… it was so obvious, he was suffering in the same way I was. But worse, he had the media on his back… he had more pressure than this diamond could handle. I look back on it now thinking, if I would have said something, I noticed, maybe we would be fighting it together today.
Depression is the most cold-blooded killer known to man…
Happy Birthday my angel, I am sorry that it took you too…
You did well Jonghyun…
I hope you found peace,
Shawol always <3
Many of us feel the same. You can never know what is going in the minds of others. SHINee was the first group that brought me into the Kpop scene, and I was utterly horrified at the news. Floating in depression is like drowning on land, and I know that its a dark place. I wish more hope and positivity could have reached Jonghyun.
I hope you are in a better place Jonghyun.
You did well Jonghyun…