I have no one to talk to. I am that kind of person who does not show their sadness. People says I am strong enough to endure any kind of struggle. But The hardest thing to do is enduring.
I wrote here knowing at least one person will read my inner thoughts. One person will understand me. One person will know the real me, Myself without wearing a mask. I don’t know any more if I’m in a deep depression or it is just my life is tough that I cannot feel happy anymore. Believe I have been through a lot. I have no regrets.
Because everything bad happened is not because I did not try hard or I did bad. It just life has been hating me since birth. I have one single regret which is hurting myself. Hurting my body. Leaving ugly scars in my OWN body. The body I loved. Despite all the flaws it had. I loved my body. It was the single thing I own and took care of to make it better.
One day Everything changed to the point I cannot look at my body as it was the most disgusting thing. Don’t hurt yourself. If You once harmed yourself like me. I feel you. Please be strong and Don’t do it again.