I’m a Syrian gal, living in Canada. Ever since I moved here, I haven’t gotten along with anyone.
Let me rephrase: everyone hates me. I’ve been a disappointment to my parents and my family. I’ve been gaining so much weight because I would binge eat my feelings away. My only best friend is the most selfish human being I have ever met and all she cares about is her dumb crush.
My grandfather died 2 days ago. My mom found out how horrible my grades are and is very disappointed in me that she refuses to talk to me. I can’t use my phone freely because my mom reads every single message I send to everyone (which makes me so angry). I have no privacy.
Also, a couple of months ago, a sex tape of me was published and everyone at my school saw it and some people started bullying me. I got rejected by the guy I was in love with (and that guy moved now). All I want to do now is end it all. I’ve had enough. I can’t take it anymore. I’ve been looking for painless ways in which I could end my life, but every time I try to end it, someone steps in and ruins the moment. I can’t take it anymore. I can’t.