I don’t know where I should start.
When I was little, I was really happy. I enjoyed my life as much I could. I was having so much fun with my friends. I always thought everyone have a good heart. I was nice to people and always try to help them as much as I could. I was even able to put my life in danger to save my friends.
But everything will always come to end, even if we don’t want it. When I got older my best friend died about four years ago. And there is always a person who ruins your life.
When I met that person, he actually became my boyfriend. I was happy with him. But then he starts to bully me. My friends left me because of him.
It was end of holidays and I went to a new school. I was really scared what will people think of me.
The first day was okay, but the other day I got bullied by my classmates. They were calling me ugly and laughing at me.
I was sad. But no matter what, I was still trying to make some friends. I was trying to make a conversation with some girls, but they told me I’m just annoying and I should go away. So, I did what they told me. I gave up on trying to make friends.
I became a very closed-mind and quiet person. Always when teacher asked me a question and I answered, I got laugh at by my classmates. They were laughing I could speak and that I sound like a boy.
After some time, a was also bullied on net. People were writing me really mean things like: I don’t belong here, I should kill myself, I have no one, I ruin everything and other stuff.
I was crying every night. I felt lonely. My “boyfriend” was even threatening me with some stuff that I don’t want to actually talk about.
After some time, I started to believe people on everything they were saying to me. Like I’m only a freak, weirdo and other stuff.
I started to cut myself. I hated myself so much. I didn’t know what to do anymore.
I was depressed for about two years. It’s better now.
I have friends, a lovely boyfriend and I’m really glad I have them.
Like I said when I was cutting, it left scars on my arms and they will never disappear. So please everyone that are reading this and have depression, please don’t ever cut yourself, it won’t solve anything, and you will going to only regret doing that in the future.
Stay strong and don’t ever give up. There are always some people that they care about you, even if you don’t see it. Don’t make them suffer like you. One they you will going to feel happy again.
People that are bullying you or something, are stupid. They think they are so cool by making you suffer. They are envy because you are special and beautiful.
STAY STRONG PEOPLE! And thank you for taking your time to read this.