Hi. I’m an just now seventeen year old girl. Honestly my life was fine for a time. But for awhile now I’ve wanted to die. I go to church almost every Sunday and I’ve even been slain in the spirit! But it’s like no matter what I do, I do something wrong to my two mom’s. they say I’m just like my biological mom, who has done horrible things in life. And they bring up past occurrences. I don’t know what to do anymore. I have previously used the “I want to die” card as an escape.. I’ll admit it. But now I truly feel this way.
I don’t know what to do anymore. I pray almost every night for God to off me in my sleep and to take me home to his kingdom.. But it never happens and then I wake up to my family being mad at me the whole day, and everything I do isn’t enough to make their moods better. I have two younger siblings and they’re treated like royalty. I honestly think they’d be better off without me as I haven’t been the best influence in anyway..