It hurts to realize that people around you are so fake, but you know what hurts more? Knowing that people who are close to you are not any different from all. Lies, fake promises, false hopes, this is all I receive.
But maybe it’s my fault that I expect too much from them, and end up getting hurt. You do not want to be hurt, leaving is the only option, but you can not even leave because you do not want to hurt them. Trust issues have bordered me so badly, that i refuse to trust anyone but my parents.
Now I am in several dead and hopeless friendships with people. It does not kill me anymore, because I expect nothing. I am not selfish, but I am not gonna continue to hurt myself just so I do not hurt others. It just feels like I am watering some dead plants, knowing they won’t bloom.