She’s kinda a jock. Popular, but she seems distant or something. I don’t know why, but my friends and her have never got along. Her and one of my friends actually are like enemies or whatever haha I know it sounds stupid but anyway.
Me? I’m really bad at sports, and girly. Not to sound full of myself, but I’m nice to everyone, but I have trouble expressing my true feelings, especially when I feel sad, which is all the time. I’m a dork and even though I’m in the ‘nerd’ group I’m not really that smart. Long story short, not many people like me because I’m clingy, needy and always feel so excluded that I’m fine with being bossed around. So I guess you could say we’re practically opposites.
We never really talked and didn’t have any reason to until we got put next to each other in a class. I didn’t like her until a few months later but I don’t really know when it happened. But even in that class we didn’t talk at all, but then one day (we had this class only once a week) I decided to just be nice to everyone and stop being so shy, so I said hi. She said hi back, but that was it. A week later, practically the same happened but we talked a bit more, and then we were allowed to change our seats so we sat next to our friends again.
My friends and family would be fine if I told them I was bi and liked this girl, but it would be awkward if I told them and my friends are always so disappointed in who I like (always fuckboys) but its not my fault and they know it but they would still probably be upset because I’ve been pretending like I hate that group all year but I don’t.
So, now we kind of are friends, we talk more than we used to, but the thing is I always see her staring at me, and I mean flat out staring and smiling. I’m not sure whether that means anything or not, but that doesn’t change the fact that I like her too. I wish I didn’t but I really do and I just needed to share this. I love you, and I hope to see you in the future because you were the only one keeping me from ending it all this school year xx