I have a terrible life. Ever since I’ve known myself things have been so terrible for me. I have a big family. The youngest out of 11. Seems like the most hated too. It seemed everyone had a problem with me. They never included me in anything. My mom and dad argued a lot. My mom kinda lost it for sometime when I was about 12. My mom never worked my dad cheated a lot. When I was 14 my dad died. From then I’ve been from house to house. Living with my sister’s or brothers until they got tired of me. I didn’t graduate high school I ended up quiting. I had my first baby at 20 and my 2nd at 22. I have two girls I feel their the best thing that happened to me. I’m 24 now I live in a house that is being rented by my baby dad. My mom lives with me. Recently she been acting up again. I can’t handle it. I’m unemployed and my life is a mess. She knows that and yet she is this way. I can’t help but to think she’s pretending. Now my family that contributed to how she is suddenly wanna come around and put all pressure on me. I feel like I’m losing my mind now. My mom was never really there for me no one was. I’m still fighting to be accepted in my family. I have no friends because it’s hard for me to trust anyone all I do is cry. Nothing is working out for me and the people who is supposed to be there brings you down the most. I had to share because everything is bottled up and I honestly want the pain to end so bad sometimes I think of doing the unthinkable. I feel so hurt and alone.