my life is really a torn mess right now it all started last summer i had a bit of a crush on a girl that went to this after school thing for middle school. Me and my friends had all sat down to play a game of truth or dare this girl had joined the game later in the game i was dared to kiss her after the kiss we would ask each-other questions about each-other eventually one thing led to another and i had her phone number which is when i found out she had a boyfriend and felt bad kissing me but that she also had a crush on me. Later in the year she had broken up with her boyfriend for me. I felt horrible taking her away from him and started cutting myself after a couple weeks she found out and got mad and tried to get me to stop i would go on and off cutting myself one week than stopping the next month it went on like this for a while. after 3 dates we had an argument broke up and she went back to her boyfriend she went back and forth between us and eventually she stopped dating later on this year she told me she liked a boy at her school i didn’t think much of it until i realized how much i missed her so we were friends then i told her my feelings and she said she was trying to stick with the other boy this time (the guy she dated when we played truth or dare) i said OK and i don’t know what to do because on one hand she says she likes me and i do to on the other i think i should try to move on with life but i really really want to stay with her so if you have any advice please let me know.