So, I don’t know what kind of site is this, I just find it and first I want to tell that I am not good at English, I am just learning it. In fact, I go to university (not yet, I have to pass the final exam) but anyways this is not the point.
Well, I have (almost) eighteen years and I still feeling like… depressing? Or something, I mean I feel like that since I have memory, and every year I tell myself “Okay, this year will be different” but the truth is that I never do something for the year to be different… But, at the same time I think that no matter how harder I try I will never be happy… I mean, I’m the kind of person that no one wants around, it’s way better lose me than find me, I’m a piece of shit. Literally, I hate everything about me, and I know that I’m young but I don’t see any future.
Anyways, sorry guys for that stupid and unnecessary story about me… and sorry for the grammar. All the love.
Hey chin up!
You don’t have to make big changes to change the year or your life. Baby steps 😉 Look back and make a list of everything that is different than it was a few months ago maybe even a year. It seems like everything is the same but it is really not.
People that you are surrounded with now don’t have to like you. Screw them! At the university you will meet new people, have a chance to connect with strangers, even maybe change your attitude (It is not a suggestion that your attitude s bad). Maybe open yourself a little to strangers, you might be surprised 😉
You know how you will find your future? Ask yourself a simpple question: why?
example:
Why did I decide to go to this university?
and when you know your answer ask yourself why again… and repeat that few times until you find what is truly the source of that. The one below is mine at the moment. But this things change. Our priorities change, a lot!
I am studying economy. Why?
Because I want to get an aducation? Why?
Because I want an amazing job that I love. Why?
Because I will get the money from something that I love and I won’t be worried about how to get through month. Why?
So I can focus on everything else (like family, friends, boyfrien…). Why?
So I am happy and everyone else that is around me is too.
YOU create your own happiness, no one can do it for you. Decide that you will be happy, smile more, have fun! You are young, you are supposed to mess up things, fight with people, they might hate you. You don’t need negativity in your life. I’ve been there, lost few friends got few new ones – that are way better than the first ones 😉
sorry if I am being intrusive 🙂