When I was in 6th grade there was a field trip called science camp and I was super excited about it.
It was December first and it was 4 years ago.
The day before my trip I remember getting my hair done by my mom and that’s all I can remember.
That day I woke up and it was one in the morning at a hospital and I found out I had a seizure and was diagnosed with epilepsy. It was a really sad day for me and because of that even now as I am fifteen am still going through the pain.
The one thing I hate the most is how in my most sad times like when my parents are fighting I try to make myself have a seizure because whenever I do I forget what happens throughout the day.
I think I have depression but tell myself I shouldn’t there are people with worse lives. I also have to be this mentally strong straight a student for family which I’m really not. It’s painful to deal with this but because my family is already in pain I don’t tell them these things.
I also have so much anger problems from this and I try so hard not to get mad at everyone but the reason is because I have too much feelings, I always wish to be someone who has to feelings toward anything but it’s impossible for me. I don’t know I just keep so much in.
hey, people are here to help, you cant hate your life because we love you, you may not know who we are, who i am, but trust me, and believe me when i say; there are people who are suffering with worst, you don’t know what goes on in anyone’s life but your own. and never lose hope, whenever you feel like you will, remember that there are people who are suffering more than you do, there are, people who care for you, people who will do anything just to see your pretty smile, hear your amazing laugh, and see you happy. and if you’re keeping so much in just talk to someone or write down, draw scribble, turn down your feelings and emotions and negativity into something creative. xx