I’m scared of my friends
I am so tired that I can’t even find the words to describe what I feel right now.
My life messed up. I used to be a happy person, but now I’m just a person who fakes laugh. Happiness is a choice, yeah, but for me happiness is a massive equation.
It’s really hard to watch my friends turn their backs and create rumours about me. It’s really hard to watch them build an army against me.
I denied that they cause me pain, but I know deep inside me I’m hurt, I feel betrayed, and I’m scared of them.
I haven’t talked about them to others because I don’t want to take their rights to be judge by how others knew them. But I can’t take it anymore, so here I am, confessing anonymously. They have no idea how they affect my life, I’m drowning, my insecurities start to build up, my confident fades but behind these, I pretend. I love them so much that I kept my mouth closed as they spread rumours about me. It’s just all because I found a new friend, and they wrecked me for having a new friend. I still love them though.