It’s been 4 years since you raped me. I have never addressed you personally like this, only told my story and dealt with the backlash from it…
I was a thirteen year old girl.
You were:
A 17 year old female I loved.
A 22 year old male I only just met.
And a 19 year old who was a shadow and never spoke.
I trusted you, female. So I did what you asked. I came over again. I didn’t want them involved but whatever made you happy…
I loved you.
I wanted to be yours.
I’d do anything for your approval.
I remember the men asking “Can we record this?”
You laughed.
I screamed no.
That was the only time I spoke up.
I felt like I deserved it. It’s natural for men to use me. I’ve been molested every year of my life by men I didn’t know since I was 6.
You knew that too.
I trusted you.
I did so fucking much for you even before this.
You first, strap on and then you’re done.
Them next, you sit in the corner on your phone as I silently cry
I grab your leg, whisper “make them stop” as I collapsed on the ground.
You finally cared.
You got me on the bed, gave me a blanket and some soda.
I was ready to sleep.
22 year old I just met comes back for “finishing off”.
This time I raised my hand ” please, I’m so weak, I just want to sleep”
And he said “I’ll be quick”
He was, at least
Then weeks later I got a UTI
I waited a month to find out if it was pregnancy or an STD, same early symptoms.
I almost died due to waiting.
You found out I was telling people it was rape
You all threatened me
You told me to drink the potential baby out of my system
I tried to get justice
Told the school
They told you, girl I loved
And you come to my house
And you convince my mom I’m a lunatic liar
And EVERYONE else in this shitty city.
Now I’m a whore who wanted to be trained
I hate you all
You ruined my life
Your such a SLUT!