I can’t do this anymore. I don’t wanna be with my boyfriend he makes me feel good physically but I don’t wanna be in a relationship where it’s going no where. I let him cross the line and it was a mistake. I lost my virginity to someone I am not in love with. I made mistakes I wanna fix it but I feel trapped, too in and don’t know how to stop it. I don’t wanna let my first go because I will miss him and I’m so lonely right now, I feel like I have no one. My mother wants to mold me to be someone I am not and believe in something I do not.
All my bestfriends have boyfriends and are caught up in that drama and I don’t wanna bother them with mine. I don’t have friends anymore they all distanced themselves. I know it’s all temporary and I will find new friends but for now I’ve never felt more alone.