Hello. I’d like to share a story that I need help with.

So, I’m friends with this girl. We’ve been friends for years and grew our relationship over text over quarantine. We’ve come to the conclusion that we love each other and want to spend our lives together. The thing is, we’re both fifteen and her parents wont let her date till she’s eighteen. Also, my sister and mother hate her guts. her mother might think I’m a pervert, because I had a little crush on her friend. I am socially awkward and thought one on one conversation would be easier. Anyways, me and girl that I love are friends though I can feel us both wanting more, even though we can’t. My mom has trust issues with me. The girl is the only thing that helps me get through self loathing. Life sucks.