I can’t stop thinking about my ex best friend. We haven’t spoken since April and I can’t go one day without her in my head.
It’s torture, we did everything together so anytime I do anything it reminds me of her. And the worst part is I can’t talk to anyone about it. After we had our fight she turned every single one of our mutual against me.
I only really had one friend left, and I can’t talk to her because when I tried she just said “fuck her she’s a bitch, forget about it” but I can’t forget about her she was my first real best friend we did everything together. Over the summer when I worked I probably spent half my income on her and then she just threw me away because I made some shitty jokes about the school walkout.
That I purposely didn’t make in her presence because I didn’t want to offend her. It was probably my fault, but I felt like she used me I did everything for her and I feel like she took advantage of how much I cared about her and threw me away as soon as she found someone to replace me. Made me feel like trash and made cry all night for countless days.